This blog should follow me as I try to learn to accept myself instead of trying to be accepted. A massive cliche, being a 'road of self discovery', but it will be a challenge, as I have set myself a year in which to sort my life out.
I am currently on the train heading back up to university for my final term of this year. Even though I have a lot of work to do this end, I'm not really that worried about it (although I'm sure that I will be soon).
Just the fact that I have only got 6 weeks left in this year, and I'm not going to be there for some of the time (3 long weekends), just makes me happy. Oh, and the fact that I am no longer single...!!
I have eaten far too much this holidays, but I think that it is wat my body needed. So now I just need to tone up for the summer so I look acceptable in a bikini!
I am in a good place now, and I think that my confidence is growing again.
I have realised that it is coming dangerously close to the end date of my endeavour for self acceptance. I'm not quite sure that I am ready for it to end, but the fact that it is is making me want to give it that final push.
So everything is on the up, or so it seems. Just need to keep it up!
Well I am back from Morocco. It was a really good trip: the country itself was amazing (really want to go back as a tourist), the people who went were a laugh and I have made some great friends, the team leader was as mad as a hatter, and the food was incredible. They only downers I can think of was that I got really ill at the end of the 10 days with a really bad fever and that looking a dipping bedding planes got boring after day 1.
I am now on my Easter holidays. So far I have spent it with Him, which was lovely: making fires in the woods, toasting marshmallows and drinking Crabbies. I am now at my dads for the days before the bank holiday weekend.
I don't intend to do any uni in the 10 days I have left of the holidays. This might turn out to be a mistake, but I don't really care. All I want to do is enjoy having some time off by spending time with my friends and family, eating copious amounts of chocolate and hot cross buns and do lots of baking.
I am in a much better place now and I intend to get even happier. I have even started to make plans for my birthday.
I love Spring. Full of new life, sun (sort of) and hope. Lets hope that this feeling continues for the start of the new term...!